Monday, May 2, 2011
We tried to get you help. You spoke about your pain, but not always. Right? There were some dark secrets that you didn't let anyone shine a light on, weren't there? Not enough people listening to your cries of pain. We heard them. We thought we were listening, but we fooled ourselves, didn't we? You fooled us, didn't you?
Do you know how much we loved you? Do you know how much we still love you? Some of us are a little mad at you, do you know that? Because you stole from us. You robbed us blind and you disappeared, so it's not like we can get what you stole back. We can't get you back. That's what you stole. You goddamned thief! I want what you took back!
I miss you. I think about you all the time. I can't imagine how much it hurts the others. You were their family. They knew you better than anyone. Did any of us know you? Did the right people know you?
There weren't any tulips. I'm sorry. We would have brought tulips. We should have brought green tulips.
If you're feeling like you have no options and that suicide is your only way out, please don't. There are resources out there to help you - free of judgment, acrimony and shame. Please.
If you're a teen or kid who needs someone to talk to that isn't your mom or dad or teacher (though you CAN talk to them!), please try these resources:
If you're First Nations, and you want to talk to someone who would be more sensitive to what it is like being First Nations and in need of someone to listen to you, please check out this resource:
If you're LGBT or questioning, and think there's no way you can live this life because of the abuse you suffer at the hands of bullying, please go to:
If you suspect someone is suicidal, but don't know what signs to look for, please read this:
Are you in search for some coping mechanisms? Please go to this link to learn a simple way to cope that might just help. If it doesn't, that's okay. There are so many ways to cope. The author is a pyschotherapist who is dedicated to mental health and mental health awareness.